Another weekend flies by

Sunday and it seems all I have done this weekend is washing!!! Still not that I am complaining. Life is good at the moment. Sure I've cleaned and washed alot but it means the week will be simplier. G is in high spirits at the moment too. Our relationship seems to be going from strength to strength. I can't believe how many times a day at the moment I am getting told that he loves me. Makes my heart soar! 

Of course the loving could have something to do with the fact that we are currently looking to buy a new car for him, after the write off of his precious punto! We're still waiting on the salvage cheque to come through and he's on the net 24-7 when not working searching for cars that he might like, and at the same time pleading with me to agree to spend more money on it. It's a fine balance between living on baked beans for several months and getting a car that he won't be moaning about within a month!! Still the idea that he gets something he wants has put him in a good frame of mind and he's happier to talk more about what I want!! 

Whilst on the subject, I had the most real dream two nights ago that I gave birth. I had a little boy, he was very pale skinned, it was a surprise to me in my dream and I didnt even have any clothes for him! It was one of those occasions where I woke up and was shocked it was a dream. I really believed it. Gutting eh. 

We have some funs things planned for this week. I'm meeting a friend for lunch that I haven't seen in years, we have our doctors appointment, and G and his cousin Kuz as he shall hereafter be known, are off to see Rick Ross in concert! And yes I am very excited for them! It was my treat, and I know they are both very excited! So here's to a good week!! 

New Friends

As G works late on wednesday nights, til 10pm, Wednesdays are a perfect excuse now to try and move my recently listed goals into action. Taking stock of my life recently I noted with some concern that my friends have been moving further and further down my list. Some of my very best friends live far away, and yes we stay in touch through facebook/text/occasional calls, but really is this good enough? How come men seem to find time but us girls rarely do? I'd always assumed this was some connection to child rearing/care, but as I have none yet it can't be just that. Maybe in my case it is just pure laziness. Actually there is no maybe there... 

So last night I went to Jo's house. Jo lives in Reading, and isn't one of my best mates, in fact she's more of a new friend. I met Jo through the club nights I used to attend regularly. I've probably known her to say hi to for about three years, but only recently pre the wedding started getting talking properly to her. Jo was the massage therapist at my hen pamper party, and since then we've talked online a fair bit and decided to meet up. It's unusual to make friends later in life I think but so nice. We have so much in common. She's older than me, has a very grown up daughter of just 15, and is just a lovely lovely lady. Had a great evening gasing. And she cooks a mean spag bol! 

Halloween Holidays

We've booked up a lovely holiday for the two of us to the Isle of Wight for October half term. I really needed something fun to look forward to, and the joy of going away is that I get G to myself the whole time, without distractions of TV and laptops! 

We will be getting the car ferry across from Southampton, to East Cowes, and then driving to Freshwater Bay where we have booked a new holiday apartment! Sounds and looks lovely. Modern and clean, Mr OCD should like it! As the island is only 26 miles long, we'll be able to travel all around. 

One nice fact I only found out after I booked it is that my mum told me that her and Dad stayed in Freshwater Bay when she was pregnant with me, and in fact I was nearly born there! 

Little Swimmers

After my first trip to our doctors recently to get the ball rolling and work out if there was anything they could do to help the old fertility along, I popped into the doctors on friday to find out how long the referral would take, only to discover that they hadn't done it!!! 

Anyway this morning a letter came telling me that they want to check G's little fellas before they will even see me....honestly I think that they are just trying to cover their bums as they havent done anything but that's fine. G is soooo impressed(not!) with the idea of the little jar and it's taken all sorts of bribes to get him to go to our appointment next tuesday! Fingers crossed eh! 

I'm feeling kind of positive about it all. It's a start anyway. I mean I'm not under any illusions that it's going to work but I feel it's a step in the right direction. 

Saturday Blues

Today has just been one of those days where I haven't wanted to do anything much. G has been working today now it's term time again, and today even had overtime to do. He's gone off to see his brother after work too so it's felt a long day again at home alone. 

I've been reading some of the lovely american blogs I have found on adoption alot today. One in particular about a couple who adopted twin girls. G and I have been talking for a long time about children and how and if we will manage to have a family. With my PCOS I've always known babies would be hard to have naturally so for me adoption has always been on the cards. In the UK adoption of babies though is rare, although my understanding is that there are more black and mixed race children who are needing adoption than white children so we may get lucky. 

This is the first time I have really put these dreams out there. Since our wedding people are constantly asking me when the babies will be coming. G has started getting it too now. There are many nights at the moment when I get very upset at the thought of it never happening either way. As I'm a bigger lady this could be perceived as a problem in adoption. 

So yes today I've felt sad. Like this is out of my reach. I'm 34. I'm at the time where now we have to start making it happen one way or another. Some days G understands this and agrees that we need to move forward, other days he thinks we have years to worry. 

My Preggers Sisters in Law!!

Scan pictures of "Peanut" Horsburgh, my little Niece or Nephew! 

Both Karolyn and Donna are pregnant and with such a distance physically between our family this is such a special picture to have for years to come. "Peanut" Horsburgh, our little Scot, Mummy Donna and Daddy Ben, is due in February, and "Lollipop" Horsburgh, Mummy Karolyn, Daddy James is due in November! We know Lollipop is a little girl, and Scarlett Grace is a very happy little sister! I'm a very very proud Auntie and can't wait to have a cuddle of them both! 

Shopping Fun!!!!

Oh my goodness, so excited today with my new bag from Matt and Nat which I just love!!!! It's a vegan eco bag, made from yes, you are hearing me right, plastic bottles recycled! Absolutely gorgeous!! And add this to my new beanie hat and scarf I'm all set for the changing season!!!! Bring on the windy day!!!!! 

Also started my Christmas shopping... sssh don't tell anyone! Yeah I know it's only September but it was an absolute bargain... 

Scarlett Grace started school today. She's a little madam, wrapped up in an Angel disguise that one. Apparently she refused to answer her name when the teacher called the register. No surprises there for the little control freak. School is gonna make that girl. Can't believe it really, she's still a baby. 

Where has the summer gone??

It only seems yesterday I was unpacking all the summer clothing and finding the sun cream for our honeymoon which heralded the start of the summer for us back in May.. Now September nights are drawing in and the wind has started up.

Spent some time away with my beautiful niece and nephew and my parents and Nan in the summer. Fantastic time was had at the summer bungalow that I visited as a kid. Sadly it's now up for sale and I won't get a chance to take my children to visit it god willing. Still Scarlett and Matt loved it just as much as we did as kids. 

Life goes on...

Over the last few weeks we've had some problems. No need to go into the actual details but lets just say an outsider threw a cat amongst the pigeons. For a while this made me bury my head into well not the ground but the bed and cry. Now though it's making me think that what I have is precious and special and no one but no one knows what it is apart from Greg and I. I need to make a start on the rest of our life together, and stop putting it off. I'm the only one who can make things change. So instead of waiting until the new year to make some goals known.... here's mine for now....

1. Try to follow the guidelines in my PCOS book for healthy eating! 

2. Make time for me with my friends! 

3. Have more fun with my husband! 

Thats it for now... how hard can it be??